Depression+Anxiety

I've just been feeling very depressed and anxious lately. I've been thinking of all the things going on in the world (as usual), and about how other people treat each other and seeing some things that happened in dA, and idk, it just makes me feel horrible. It's truly sad how unforgiving and impulsive people can be, and how much we can lie to ourselves our abandon each other. These are things I've always known, and things I think about, but for some reason it's just been making me sadder lately.

School's also starting soon, and oh boy, great, going back to the days where I was suicidal as Hell. Trapped in a routine, in a broken system and with a future that I will never like. Wonderful. It seriously feels like I'm going insane when in school season, and summer just depresses me, because I'm alone a lot.
A lot of things have happened and it just..sucks, makes me feel empty.

I have set up goals for this new school year, but I don't know if I can reach them. I know I'm smart and could do better if I tried more, but I lack motivation, and my anxiety and depression and restlessness, including my inability to focus and my complicated brain, make it very hard for me to do what is required for school. It's a toxic environment, to be honest. At least it has it's good parts and I'll try my best to achieve my goals.

Welp rant over, no-one cares anyway (I know super edgyyy I am #edgelord B) )